When people ask me how old my boyfriend is and I tell them, I get surprised reactions sometimes. My friends don't mind the 10 year age difference, in fact a lot of my male friends try to be more like him. When I met some of his friends when I was fourteen they thought I was in college, until I told them I was still in high school.
Maybe you think it's sick that he's dating a young girl like me, maybe you don't. It doesn't really matter to me, some people are like that and I don't mind if they think that way. That's just how they are. I personally don't think my boyfriend is some pervert who gets his willies out of dating young girls. He never had relationships with young girls before he met me.
I date older guys. I don't do it purposely, I just seem to attract them and vice versa. I have dated people around my own age. Those relationships were short lived and most did not hold any meaning to me.
In this blog, I will be calling my boyfriend B. We are still together, and working through his cheating on me. Before he cheated on me, I admired him more. I put him on this pedestal, this unrealistic pedestal that made everything he did wonderful. Kind of like how I used to look up to my father when I was a kid, and then when I was 12 my parents marital situation shattered my rosy little world, and my father was no longer held in that admirable light. This is how it is with B. He fell from that pedestal and in a way it's better because now he's become more real.
My friend whom he slept with, is no longer my friend. She is the same age as me. I met her in junior high, we weren't that close until I bumped into her last summer. On this blog, I will just call her "Pam". I was working at this firm last summer and I saw her at this career convention type of thing. She wanted to work there, so I asked if she could work at the firm and so that's how it got started. We didn't have a "chick fight", but we talked about it. She gave me noncommittal answers when I asked her why she would do something like that to me, so I stopped asking. I will write more about what happened between us later when my story gets to that point.
As for now, I must start at the beginning.
Maybe you think it's sick that he's dating a young girl like me, maybe you don't. It doesn't really matter to me, some people are like that and I don't mind if they think that way. That's just how they are. I personally don't think my boyfriend is some pervert who gets his willies out of dating young girls. He never had relationships with young girls before he met me.
I date older guys. I don't do it purposely, I just seem to attract them and vice versa. I have dated people around my own age. Those relationships were short lived and most did not hold any meaning to me.
In this blog, I will be calling my boyfriend B. We are still together, and working through his cheating on me. Before he cheated on me, I admired him more. I put him on this pedestal, this unrealistic pedestal that made everything he did wonderful. Kind of like how I used to look up to my father when I was a kid, and then when I was 12 my parents marital situation shattered my rosy little world, and my father was no longer held in that admirable light. This is how it is with B. He fell from that pedestal and in a way it's better because now he's become more real.
My friend whom he slept with, is no longer my friend. She is the same age as me. I met her in junior high, we weren't that close until I bumped into her last summer. On this blog, I will just call her "Pam". I was working at this firm last summer and I saw her at this career convention type of thing. She wanted to work there, so I asked if she could work at the firm and so that's how it got started. We didn't have a "chick fight", but we talked about it. She gave me noncommittal answers when I asked her why she would do something like that to me, so I stopped asking. I will write more about what happened between us later when my story gets to that point.
As for now, I must start at the beginning.
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